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Next Summit: Motherhood
Posted on August 31, 2011

By Caroline George

Life goes in stages. For me at least, it does. You go through college, graduate and wonder: “What’s next?” You find your dream job, settle into it and one morning you look at yourself in the mirror and wonder: “What’s next?” I have a passion: climbing. And I am always wondering what the next climb is going to be. But to give it more meaning, I decided to become a guide and communicate my passion to others.

So I went through the guide’s training to become fully IFMGA certified. I built my own company and clientele and have been loving every moment of it, along with my career as an athlete for First Ascent and other companies (Petzl, Julbo, Scarpa). But one morning, after a very busy season, I woke up, looked at myself in the mirror and wondered: “What’s next?”

Well, truth be told, it didn’t happen quite that “overnight.” I have always thought that the day I have kids, my climbing life would end. Climbing, guiding, being a professional athlete, etc. would disappear from my life, and I therefore needed to do every climb I possibly could before then. I wouldn’t say that the pressure came as much from my environment as it did from me. I knew I should have kids, but I didn’t know when the right time would be, after which climb I should decide to give it all up for kids. People have often said that they haven’t done some of the climbs they wanted to do because they wanted to be a responsible parent, which is most likely why I always felt that my life as a professional would end with children. Maybe it’s in response to that that I decided to become a guide so that the day I would have kids I could justifiably still go out and play, all the while working and getting some exercise and coming home without the need to go out and do more training.

That said, 2011 has so far been one of the most prolific and exciting years of my life. I got to climb in Antarctica, Thailand, Jordan, ski-guide all over the Alps (Silvretta, Bernina, Haute Route, etc.), climb the Supercouloir with one of my best friends, Tania, do a one-day ascent of the north face of the Eiger with my husband, Adam, move into a great apartment that Adam remodeled while I was away guiding in Antarctica and many other great moments shared with friends and family.

Filled with all of these great experiences, I hit a bit of a wall in May. I was climbing with Adam on the Grand Capucin, one of the most world-class and spectacular peaks in the world, no less, when I realized that as much I loved climbing and guiding, I suddenly felt the urge for something more to balance out my life. Too much of a good thing can kill a good thing is the saying, right?

As I climbed up the soaked blank granite face, I realized that I just didn’t want to be there. A tough realization for a climber. I reached Adam, and with tears in my voice and in my eyes, I told him that I just wanted to be home and make babies. With a look of terror in his eyes, he said, “You freak me out!” Yet, as hormones would have it, I got pregnant that night (I like to think so; it makes for a better story)—or around that time.

I quickly found out that I was pregnant and was elated. It’s not that I had wanted it that badly, but it felt like it was the right time for it. When I turned 25, I decided I should graduate from law school. When I turned 35 (this year), I knew that I should start thinking more seriously about kids. And I did. I think that I had known for a long time, that this year would be the year because last year, when I was trying to ascend Moonlight Buttress in Zion, I was so sad that winter arrived so early, preventing me from getting back on it, because I already knew deep down that I would be pregnant the following year.

That feeling of elation faded with the realization that, well, I was pregnant. Not just in concept, but for real. Something was growing inside of me, something that would change my life as I know it forever. Those words had ruled my concept of parenthood, and I always felt that as a consequence my life as a climber should end with pregnancy. So I went from being elated to being downright sad, grieving the life I had worked so hard to build for myself, grieving my identity, wanting this baby but resenting it, feeling guilty for having these emotions that I was sure the baby would feel. I was confused, torn between what I thought I should feel and what I felt.

Alongside these personal feelings, I was also confused about my guiding. I didn’t know how good or bad it was for the baby that I was going up and down mountains on a daily basis, guiding, taking risks, and more so, putting the baby at risk. That baby has been up more mountains than most could dream of in a lifetime! (My mom recently told me that the baby was going to be born with a backpack on his shoulders.)

July was a really difficult month for me. I was two months into my pregnancy and felt extremely stressed out about the idea of hurting the baby, with the constantly unstable weather patterns and having to modify all my guiding days and many other aspects of my life.

I think it took getting injured for me to sit back and understand that this wasn’t the end of my life as I knew it. I was climbing on the Weissmies on flat terrain when I missed a high step and landed shin-first on a knife-edge boulder, cutting my shin open to the bone. I continued guiding to the summit and down, and went to the doctor’s when I returned to the village below. While waiting to get stitched up, I was hit by a wave of heavy tears. I was like a two-year-old, inconsolable, weeping like I never had before. I took a few days off, rested, and accepted the fact that I am pregnant and am lucky to be able to work while pregnant. Many other women have gone through this before, and many will after me, and it’s just a part of life, a part of making choices and working around them to make it work as best you can.

I think that you can make parenthood whatever you want it to be and still be a responsible parent. Having kids doesn’t necessarily mean settling down. Maybe it will bring more structure to my life, forcing me to be more focused to keep achieving my dreams, but I hope that I won’t use my kids as an excuse to no longer pursue my dreams.

That said, I know that my lifestyle is particular, and fitting a kid in an already very busy schedule won’t be easy, but I think my life will be all the more rich for it. After all, I picked guiding not just to share my passion with others, but also because I believe that it’s very compatible with parenthood. I get to exercise all day long and be available to my kid when I get home at night, not needing to go out and exercise some more. And during the off-season, I will possibly be more available than a 9-to-5 parent could be.

I am now 3.5-months pregnant and have been guiding through the summer and loving every moment of it since my little accident. The season is coming to an end, and I am looking forward to climbing for myself again and finding the space to do other things that are more suited to pregnancy. Pregnancy is a lot like doing a first ascent. Although many people have done first ascents and have gone through motherhood before, your own seems like the first of the first; you can only hope that all of the skills you have accumulated in your life until now will enable you to overcome the challenges ahead and lead you to a successful summit, this one this time being motherhood.


Author: - Wednesday, August 31st, 2011

  1. David

    Congrats Caroline!

  2. Lindsey Clark

    Hi Caroline,

    I commend you for sharing your thoughts on this complicated issue in a public forum. I think all women who choose a life in the mountains are conflicted when it comes to whether or not to have children. Enjoy this important part of your life and keep us all up to date on how it all goes!

    Lindsey Clark

  3. Caroline George

    Lindsey, I agree, I think all women who are professionals in the mountains or in any outdoor/adventure/extreme sport, is conflicted about having kids. It’s more scary than any climb you’ll ever do, because no climb is a life long commitment, like a kid is. You can give a climb a go and if you don’t like it, you can try another one. You can’t do that with a kid. But I love the commitment of being married with all the joys and challenges that it brings to my life so I am excited to take that to whole other new level with a child. Thanks for your comment, Caroline

  4. T-Dawg

    Congratulations to both you and Adam, Caroline! Look at starting a family as a new adventure. You have lots of support from family and friends, so you’ll make it up that summit in life just fine.

  5. Michelle

    congratulations, ms. caroline! how fortunate your baby is to have you for a mom!

  6. Matt Schonwald

    Congrats Caroline!
    Your feelings on the Grand Capucin resonated with me when I became a parent and found climbing do not satisfy my life the same way as when i was younger. My daughter and being a parent has felt like an evolution in my life adding a new dimension that climbing used to fill. I know you will enjoy and send motherhood the way you have succeeded on your other goals.


  7. Larry Ware

    Beautiful Caroline,

    A child is truly the perfect summit afterwhich no other mountain can compare. You and Eric were-are-mine.
    Feel asuured, little one, that your parents will always be there to hold your rope.
    I second the comment that your baby will be very fortunate in its choice of mother.
    Your loving and proud father

  8. Dana

    Life as a parent is totally different than your life prior to being a parent – yes, more structure, more responsibility, less sleep, etc. But is to also in so many ways more beautiful. Your priorities totally shift and you look at things differently, however one of the best gifts you can give your child(ren) is the example of continuing to pursue your passion and making it a part of you life and theirs. It will probably take a different form that it does now but your life is not ending. In many ways you may look at as just beginning. Congratulations! You’ll be a wonderful mother!

  9. Rob

    First of all, congratulations on beginning the greatest adventure of your life. Most adventures have a beginning and an end. This one will be forever. like all adventures, there will be thrills, hard times, joyful days and frustrations that will have you in tears or tearing your hair out. Take it all in stride and enjoy the beauty of the whole experience. Never let a bad day outweigh an awesome life.
    I used to be an avid climber / winter mountaineer (of no particular accomplishment). But I have known deep inside since I was 10 years old that the greatest thing I would ever do, would be to be a father. When the time came to be a parent, (at a much earlier age for me than for you, 24 years old), I gave up some of the riskier activities, and switched over to more backpacking and canyoneering. I was able to integrate my kids into these activities, and we have shared countless good times in the outdoors. I like to believe that raising 5 kids, 3 step kids and several foster kids into responsible adults has been a very particular accomplishment. One that I’ll always be proud of. I can guarrantee you will be, too. You will come to know that you can give up things of value for things of infinitely more value. Yes, there will be some empty spots in your heart, but your heart will be so full of love for your family that you will hardly notice.
    One word of warning…you will never have any trouble loving your offspring, just don’t let yourslf forget to love and cherish Adam all along the way. Now…you go, Mommy!

  10. Dalene

    Congrats to the two of you!!

  11. Jeanne @ MaximumAdventure


    Congratulations! ANd thank you for this blog. I am 33 and about to climb Mera Peak in Nepal. I love the mountains and I love to be out there. But I also had the “motherhood call” a little while ago. So well I guess after my 21,000ft summit in two weeks, I will try to reach the biggest challenge of all time: motherhood!

    Thank you for being an inspiration,


  12. Peter Knobloch

    You will be an awesome mother!!

  13. Nicole Benoit

    Dear Caroline and Adam,
    Congratulations !!!What a great what’s next:) this one will be like no other what’s next, that you have ever experienced.
    If I may be so bold as to say that “in my experience every day becomes a what’s next.They are precious moments to be experienced, a new adventure every day.”
    Don’t worry about time actually for get time and give yourself the gift of discovering a hole different part of you, of both of you of the 3 of you.
    Don’t worry about your carrer everything will be fine and in perfect order for everyone. Remember you where a baby on climbing sites :)
    lots of love to you all, from your old baby sitter :)

  14. Moira Ringo

    You’ve blown past boundaries and other people’s expectations in every other aspect of your life, Caroline. Being a climbing momma will be no different. Here in North Carolina, we have a whole community of climbing Mommas and crag babies. Welcome to our tribe.

  15. Eryka Thorley

    Caroline this is absolutely beautiful! Thank you for sharing! Congratulations to you and Adam!

  16. Kathy

    Incredible post! Thanks for sharing and congratulations!

  17. David


    I bought one of those Kelty child carriers and pack my daughter everywhere. Kids are resilient and can handle a lot if they are conditioned for it. Have fun and as your child grows you’ll find the most joy out of their growth as explorers and adventurers. I do!!

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